2 Years ago me and my family had a big trial… I somehow think of giving in to that problem but in someway I am still keeping and holding onto my faith.
My father and our pastor got some misunderstanding and unpleasant harmony that made our whole family struggle a lot specially on faith. On the first months of our trial, I came to the point that I was the only one who wanted to go church and somehow that encourages my little sister and little bro to come with me. On the next year the trial seems to lay low a bit so that makes me happy but after few months some issues that relating to my father and to my pastor rises up again, so the old issue begins to continue again. When the misunderstanding rose up again leads my father to leave the congregation, and God knows how hard I cry and asked Him for help to save my whole family. I don’t want to serve God with my father separated to our Church. When my father told us he is leaving the congregation, I stood up and try to convince him that leaving the congregation is not very ideal. So, he stayed on congregation for weeks but after 2-3 weeks he decided to leave. And I am so sad knowing that my father separated himself and go to other church.
Ever since my father leave and go to other church, he wanted us to follow him to the church where he is in now, but, I can’t seem to find any enthusiasm to go and follow him. I felt that there is something inside me saying stay and keep on standing on your faith. Until!, until another issue came up and make things worst. I can’t find a word to explain how hard it will be for me, that I have to make this big sacrifice to save a soul. I AM BEING BROKEN AND BEING TEARED INTO PIECES.. I even cried out all day crying from deepest part of my heart SHOUTING “OHHHHH LORD, RESCUE ME!”… I really have no idea what will I do.. all I know right now, there must be a purposed on all these. T.T
Thanks Lord for the new laptop and for the clients we need most :D